People try everything to have me, they "love" me so I do everything for them and then they leave me because I'm boring or I'm just feeling bad or I'm just not perfect enough because there are better people than me. And then they love someone else, they are happy and they leave me with a broken heart. I suffer so much and they are happy with someone elses. And then someone else tries to make me happy and the circle starts again. How can I ever love and accept myself when everyone gives me the feeling that I'm ... Nothing?
Why can't I just have someone who loves me just the way I am? Why can't I have someone who cares a of me and stays with me no matter what?
I'm seriously afraid of love and I rather want to stay alone and die alone instead of living with the fear of losing someone I love and care about. Nothing hurts more than getting replaced, left, betrayed and nothing hurts more than getting pushed away by the person you love the most. This makes me sick